Shame, Shame

Like guilt, shame is another difficult emotion which has roots in the past. This is a culture implanted emotion and an individual can pay a heavy price for it. The experience & feelings with shame are captured below in the short poem: 

Eyes all around,

I am the focus.

Murmurs all around,

I am the focus.

Shame, Shame say they all

Through their looks and words.

I wish to vanish to unknown places.

But like an Ostrich, with no wings to fly

I bury my face in the ground,

Not only those who know,

But also by the unknowns,

Hunt me with Shame, Shame.

The cost of mistakes,

deliberate or non-deliberate, is too high,

Not limited to the real world,

The behavior spills to the online world,

Some comment, Some abuse, 

Shame, Shame everywhere.

The internal chaos swells,

As I sip & dip in self-criticism & questioning

Is there a blot on the portrait,

Or just a shadow for time being,

Am I good enough,

When will the shame, shame go away?